everything is inside out.
my grandmother is blind, but tells no one. breaks my heart.
family secrets too dark to type are coming to light.
i've become a grown up. a college graduate. funny. i'm broke as hell and thinking about applying for food stamps. or just maxing out a credit card. isn't that the way to do it?
Putting all my angst into something more than my online (and paper) journals is working well though. I began some building projects. Making a big folding screen for my studio apartment so it feels less like one f-ing room...Painting my bookshelves...sending beautiful mail to people.
Graduating from college has done wonders for my creativity. Thank god for that. I was certain it had left with my imagination some time ago.
more. one day.
i'm learning about
how to build a folding screen
words for the day
d.i.y.
current state
manic.
over - 2006-02-20
shiny. - 2006-01-23
grown up day - 2006-01-17
canvas - 2006-01-11
pen? pencil? maybe blood... - 2006-01-09