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glue it together
written on 2005-04-09 at 8:22 p.m.

my heart feels like glued together china. the kind of job a little kid would do, desperately tryng to conceal his mistake.

i feel it falling apart at the slightest provocation. some song's chorus, a short email or just an offhand comment from someone who just doesn't know the connection i make in my own head.

i don't want to feel this way anymore. crumbling and damaged.

i'm learning about
the certainty of endings.

words for the day
finding out what's true, finding out what's you

current state
clumsily holding myself together


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