how do things change so quickly? maybe they don't, really. talking last night with a broken-hearted boy about how the end of a relationship is a process (tipsy me compared it to losing a relative to cancer. charming, i know). I just never expected the end of james to feel like this. like nothing. nothing said and no tears at all. to think, the relationship itself was all so dramatic and in the end it went out with barely a whimper. that's dramatic in its own way i suppose. it seems like we both just hung it out to dry at the same time. any sadness feels really objective, like i'm watching it outside myself. i feel more about geoff's relationship ending than i do about my own.