leaving new york
written on 2004-10-18 at 11:32 p.m.
i don't know quite how i feel.
actually, i do. i'm sad. i feel like my arm or leg has been ripped off.
at the same time, i trust james' judgement.
whatever happens, in the end if we're meant to be together, i trust we will be.
and if not, then we'll be friends. how could we be anything else? no one else knows me that well.
i'm feeling a bit fatalistic, which i'm sure is obvious.
but i'm not angry. and i'm not crying. so things seem to be improving.
all i can do is trust that james knows what he's doing. because i sure don't.
i'm learning about
words for the day
current state
miss these?
over - 2006-02-20
shiny. - 2006-01-23
grown up day - 2006-01-17
canvas - 2006-01-11
pen? pencil? maybe blood... - 2006-01-09
over - 2006-02-20
shiny. - 2006-01-23
grown up day - 2006-01-17
canvas - 2006-01-11
pen? pencil? maybe blood... - 2006-01-09