i dont always understand what's going on around me. these two staying my home, michael and mare, are some of the oddest birds i have ever known. both of them so far back and forth, from sparking and excited and electric with energy and ideas...and then all the way to moody silence and snips.

i had to vacate this apartment earlier because they were having such, um, loud sex. well, what i actually heard was, i think, spanking. i couldnt deal, so i wandered away to find dr pepper (my comfort food) and by the time i came back, all i had to hear was the water draining from the tub.

eating out with michael's family and mare made me feel shiny. his mother clasped her hands and asked if she could adopt me; in direct contrast to the disappointment she (very clearly) expressed about her son's recent smut-making endevour and his newfound love. er, wife. yes.

i'd like to go out with her again without m and m around; she seems anxious for insight on her son. he's breaking her heart. i don't think kid realise sometimes how much their parents invest in them. of course, i just got over my row with my father, so i'm feeling pretty decent about parent-child relationships. though i still dont plan to take a dime from him once i graduate from college. i can't handle that relationship with him. it's like banging my head against a subway grate.

i might take a nap. i am always tired recently. what is it with me? if it isn't one thing, it's another. maybe i just need to sleep 18 hours a day all of a sudden to make up for the weeks and months of sleeping for 4 hours a night.

i've started a book.