i'm having one of those days where when i stand up all the blood rushes to my head and i have to sit back down again. so i think i'm parking myself on this fluffy white couch until tonight, when i'll move myself into my (mollie's) fluffy bed. fluff fluff. today can be a fluffy day...though i should be at the library. this internship always makes me feel like i'm not doing enough...like i should be digging up people's actual bones or something. but it's fine. i like microfilm and making copies...good thing too, or i'd hate reed. two more semesters at that place. it's crazy, thinking about getting out. thinking about being an adult. or, at least, not at all a child. i wonder when people will begin to take me seriously? not for a while, i imagine. maybe i should look into growth hormones, or start using a deep booming voice. bah. i see all these men in suits in midtown and i just can't imagine working with them in offices, law offices, advertising firms, whatever. i can't imagine. it's getting real close, those decisions, but i feel like it's a hundred years away. i don't think i want to go to law school...mostly because i just dont care enough about it. honestly, i'd go to make my dad happy, but that's a really lame reason to do anything. he'll have to make himself happy. and i'll have to do the same...whatever that means. i miss james being here.